JB.

Im very helpless romantic at heart. I may not have the softest heart. But when it comes to the people i love, i'll always have a song for em. Its just me. Maybe because i was so into music once ago.




Utk murabbi pertama, twas Hold My Hand - Maher Zain. Murabbi pertama yg kedua, haha too many! One of em is, I look to you - Boyce Avenue. Mutarabbi pertama, Home - Phillip Phillips. And now, rakan seperjuangan pertama, i have two songs for em, one is Photograph - Ed Sheeran and then this song.




Gahhh! (Diskelemer, if you were not my housemate, than this post isnt for yguys to read. Mehewww.)




Hi! Assalamualaikum! Its your bongsu-est girl (as in attitude, bukan umur. Hekk!) in the house speaking. The most childish and problematic kid. Haha.





Imma write like i have no PSM to settle. Muahaha.




This letter, is for antunna, the biggest JB ive known :')




Dear Umar (eheee),

Jazakunallah kheyr for being there through thick and thin. We have come this far girls (Yuhuuuu!) I know its not that far yet, but this far already alhamdulillah lah kan :')

Im inside our house now, but i miss yguys already. Ive missed yguys earlier dah pon.

Jazakunallah kheyr for every sweats, tears and blood we have shed together. Jazakunallah kheyr for the tarbiyah we have gone through together. Jazakunallahu kheyr for every smiles and laughter we have had together. Jazakunallah kheyr for everything and everything.

I know that ive never cried infront of yguys (maybe), but yguys always have a special place in my heart. Like so dear to my heart :) *hidung kembang kempis*

I apologise for all the troubles yguys have to go through because of me. I apologise if any sides of me couldnt complement us as a team. I apologise if i have brought any difficulties to yguys. I know and admit that i am very problematic. Haha and i am thankful for that. Sebab kalau tak, i wouldnt know how much you all care and how true your hearts are. You all survived to face this kid succesfully! :) Jazakunallah kheyr kerana membenarkan fillah antunna (wpun tak terluah dkt mulut, i know yguys love me, deep inside. Kehkeh).

And why this song? Sebab langit tetap biru :) (Sebiru hari ini! Haha)
Langit tetap biru walau how far we are apart in dinstant. Langit tetap biru walau kita dilanda ombak atau badai yang besar. Taktau lah, mungkin lirik lagu ni sangat deep kot. Yang memang cakap straight, akan ada perpisahan tapi mcm mana pon, langit tetap biru. Walau akan ada awan gelap pon, langit tetap biru! Walau berpisah atau berduka macam mana pon, aim kita tetap sama.

I interpret the 'langit tetap biru' as our aim. Kita semua aim Jannah, yes? We aim for UA. We aim for ilal jannati zumaro. We aim to meet Allah infront of our own eyes. Yes? Despite how far (TAKDELAH FAR SANGAT, haha) we are in distant, kita ni sebenarnya very near at heart. Hati-hati kita inshaAllah akan bersatu dalam doa rabitah. Mungkin lah kan kita takkan selalu berjumpa dah. Tapi one thing yang kita kena ingat, ini dunia :) . Kita belum berada di syurga, dan perpisahan patutnya buat kita sedar yang kita di dunia, sebab perpisahan tu kan menyedihkan. We are not meant to be happy 24/7 in this world. Sebab gembira sepanjang masa itu sifat Jannah :)

Dan kenapa lagu Photograph - Ed Sheeran.
Sebab lirik dia, ntah, suit gils kot. "We keep this love in a photograph", banyak kan gambar kita, kehkeh."We made these memories for ourselves. Where our eyes are never closing. Hearts are never broken. And time's forever frozen still". Nanti korang tengok lah lirik dia. Dr awal sampai hujung semua kena. Ripped jeans tu nanti tukar dengan skirt :P

And my fav part of the song is, "And if you hurt me. That's okay baby, only words bleed. Inside these pages you just hold me. And I won't ever let you go. Wait for me to come home". Sebab i know that ive hurt yguys much, and some other have hurt me as well. Itu hakikat perjalanan ni, Bilal pon pernah dilukai remember? But! Only words bleed baby, those are just words! Tambah kita ni perempuan, muehehehe. Mcm mana terluka pon kita sesama kita, kita akan sentiasa inshaAllah bersama berpegangan tangan (cliche me) untuk balik ke kampung halaman kita. Seee! Kena kan lirik tu! Haha.

So the next time kalau ghindu ke. Dengarkan lagu ini :) Jangan selalu, lagha je. Haha sebab tak ingatkan pada Allah pon.

I may not have a special video for you all. Mihmihmih. This is only what i have. Merepek di tengah malam. InshaAllah akhawati fillah, kita sebenarnya terpisah jasad je, bukan hati, bukan tujuan, so jangan lah rasa kehilangan sangat. Mewmewmew. InshaAllah i have faith in ahlul Umar utk terus meneruskan perjuangan kita. Jadikan tanah ini sebuah Mekah, kalau berkemampuan lagi, sebuah Madinah. Semarakkan tanah ini dengan amal kita dan cinta Allah. Moga tanah ini kembali menjadi tanah yang dulu pernah dia jadi, tempat penyebaran dakwah (:

Dan kalau betul lah Saad Abi Waqas pernah jejak kaki ke tanah ni, nanti korang boleh cerita kat dia kat dalam sorga. Ada lah jugak bahan nak sembang kan. Jadi lah tu, nak tunjuk parut mcm takdok. Haha. Konfem dia banggas! (:

So Umar, there'll be more sweats, tears and bloods coming ahead. Banyak lagi. Cuma mungkin this time around, i can only shed those from far je. I know that it is sad. Tapi inshaAllah you'll get better. Takdir yang Allah qadrkan ni memang cukup sesuai utk kedua-dua belah pihak. InshaAllah this change will be a good change. So no cry baby no cry. Haha. Allah will guide us through this, like how He have done before this.

InshaAllah sampai sini je shuwat te. Mewmewmew. I hope yguys miss me. Really really hope! Kehkehkeh.

Sekian, Assalamualaikum!


-Yours Truly :)