Diary of a sinner- teaser

"Now i have a question for you, how do you define youself as a muslim. Kay, let just say, ada sorg guy bout your age standing in front of bus station. Muka melayu pakai baju melayu complete atas bawah, but how can you jamin he is a muslim?"


 "Idk, simply ask?"


 "Okay. Now, let just say, i put another figure beside him, wears shorts, chinese look, tgh tunggu bas jugak. You rasa you akan pergi tanya ke dorg mana satu Islam mana satu tak?"


 "Erre. Awkward gila weh nak pg tanya mcmtu. Satg bukan. Kalau agak2, kot boleh pg 'assalamualaikum' je, kalau jawab, Islam ah tu."


 "So now back to the question. How do you define yourself as a muslim kalau dr luar pon you takmampu nak jamin.?"


 "Idk. Takpaham."


 " Kalau org nampak you, you rasa org ingat you apa? Melayu islam ke mix and bukan islam?"


 "The latter?"


 "So apa beza you dgn org yg bukan Islam?"


"Gosh pening ni. Elaborate."


 "It is in your heart girl. Kat luaran nobody could ever assure or confirm or jamin yg you ni islam. Tambah rambut you original brown. The only thing defines Islam in you is what your heart defines your 'Islam'. Ever heard of syahadah?"


"Ofcourse laa, im free hair but i aint no noob. I tahu je syahadah yg dlm solat tu."


"Lol kiddo, chill. I know you arent. I witness laa everything you buat. But im talking bout bukan syahadah dalam solat je. Instead im talking bout syahadah dalam hati. When you feel or admit it, youll live accordingly to what you feel and admit."


"Maksudnya apa benda kita buat semua kena ikut syahadah aa? Kita solat ke apa ke sbb kita naik saksi yang Allah tu tuhan mcmtu? Kita makan pakai tangan sbb kita naik saksi Rasulullah tu pesuruh Allah. Is that how it is?"


"More or less. Based on how you see things munchkin! Kita kena tahu beza Islam betul dengan Islam tak-berapa-nak-betul. Lol i know it sounds weird. Haha dah bunyi mcm ajaran sesat pulak. But truth may sounds weird to us sometime."


"I get the point. So if we live and do wtv we do in life with not accordingly to our syahadah, then sama je lah dengan non muslim?"


"I takcakap sama. Tp kita sendiri boleh pk."


"Hmmm." and i takpernah tahu ada such thing Islam betul dengan Islam tak-berapa-nak-betul. Ingat semua Islam tu sama je lah bila dah Islam. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Allah, guide me.


"Yo mamasita."


"Vat?"


"Kalau pakai shawl pusing2 tu kira mcmne eh?"


"Buat je pape yg you niat for Him, inshaAllah kalau cara dia betul, Allah will count. Okay munchkin?"


"Heeee. Jazakillah sis! Eh eh apa? Jazakillah eh? Betul ke what i said? Heeee."


"Haha comel sangat. Betul aa tu. Waiyyaki jazakillah kheyr, love :)"



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I know that i am not good in writing story kinda like. But I just feel like spreading feelings, instead of 'ilm. So yeah i guess, telling stories lagi meresap ke hati sebab it comes from heart inshaAllah :) Heee, may it benefit!